#but also if u can't be embarrassing on ur on stupid little tumblr blog on the stupid little internet then where CAN u be embarrassing

[sunprophets]

nobody absolutely nobody asked for a collection of my very all over the place ffxv thoughts specifically as they relate to gender/sexuality/etc AND ALSO i am supposed to be writing a paper about frankenstein that is worth 35% of my grade and due on sunday but you know what i am bursting with thoughts and ideas and opinions. everything here pertains to this specific fic of mine bc i am having fun writing it. anyways let me put all the shit under a read more so that i don’t clog up my beloved besties’ dashes

first of all i think iris and gladio r both trans AND their parents were both trans as well. clarus carried both of his children to term — he and his wife planned out both pregnancies very carefully and regis went probably more than a little overboard with making sure his friend got the best care possible. it’s partially bc of clarus and his wife that insomnia has such good trans healthcare. gender stuff was pretty easy to figure out for both gladio and iris because they had their parents to rely on for questions (well, iris only had clarus, but still). 

i know that somewhere it’s mentioned that aulea died when noctis was an infant, but in MY world she died when clarus was carrying iris. this is also when gladio’s mom died — she was protecting aulea. the two of them were close friends, close enough that she didn’t think twice before putting herself in harm’s way for her queen. it ended up being futile, but the two of them are buried side by side in aulea favourite part of the citadel gardens, underneath an old oak tree. noctis and gladio both have a habit of visiting, often separately. noctis barely remembers his mother because he was only five when she died, but he still goes and talks to her often. when he was younger he used to climb the oak and sit in the branches while he told her about his days. regis leaves him alone in these moments — his son needs his mother. 

noctis and luna are both gay. she’s the first person he tells and vice versa, via their notebook. they came up with a rudimentary code to encrypt their letters with when they were younger, and it’s stuck for years. they’re each other’s best friends and closest confidants even though they haven’t seen each other face to face in years. both of them had kind of been like “honestly it’s not so bad if i have to marry you for political reasons, it’s like living with your bestie�� but then noctis goes and falls in love with his other three best friends and luna falls in love with a charming glaive and a mechanic and well. they’re each determined to make sure the other ends up happy, so they’ll do whatever’s necessary to make sure their political marriage doesn’t have to happen. 

speaking of charming glaives, crowe is the second person noctis comes out to. he spends a year training with the kingsglaive once he turns eighteen as a way of honing his magic and getting better at fighting and strategy and a lot of them take him under their wing. (finding out about the traitors in the glaive hits him hard. he has to pretend he doesn’t know, for the sake of pelna’s quiet investigation into the matter, but he wants nothing more than to scream and cry and spit in drautos’s face). he stutters through telling crowe and trips over his words. he tells her that if he had an elder sister, he hopes she would be just like crowe. he tells her that he feels safe around her. he tells her, and this is the first time he ever says it out loud, that he is gay. 

queen sylva was trans and also, from what noctis remembers of her, the coolest person in the world. luna is forced into traditional femininity for most of her life, but when she goes on the run/road trip with noct and the guys and crowe, she gets the chance to really branch out with her style and figure out what feels right. she and prompto figure out that they’re pretty much the same shoe size, so he gives her a pair of his boots to keep as her own. often when they’re in very populated areas like towns or cities she steals from ignis’s clothes — their cover is that she and ignis are siblings, and her hair’s been dyed darker to match his, and the clothes just make it seem like there’s even more a resemblance between the two of them. also, she likes the patterns that ignis wears, even when they’re subtle, and she likes the chance to wear darker colours than the white she’s usually given as the oracle. sometimes, though, when they’re all camping, she’ll steal a pair of noctis’s cargo shorts and one of prompto’s t-shirts. she thinks she looks a little silly, mostly because the shorts noctis owns are very stupid-looking on anyone, but she likes being able to look silly. she has clothes she packed from hammerhead, too: some of cindy’s shirts and some of cid’s old flannels. she’s figuring things out still, but the exploration is part of the joy for her.